I finally arrived to a conclusion

I have been thinking about this decision for a very long time now. I see my kids and they have grown so fast. My husband and I wanted to have 4 kids but I just can't bring myself to decide that I want that forth one. But my 35th bday is coming and all I can think about is that baby. I don't know why. I kept praying about it and hoping in God's marvelous hand, He'll give a sign, if it's the right decision. And I thought that it is the right decision. I don't want not to do it because I don't want to regret that I didn't try. I have 3 boys and I want a girl so bad. There is a fifty-fifty chance but If I don't try then I won't know. So today I decided to try again. And I feel peaceful inside. This is the last one and I will cherish every bit of joy this one brings us. I just hope and pray that it will be a girl this time.